“I asked Jesus to be my Savior when I was seven years old. With that young age came a large lack of understanding of Who God is and how great is His love for us! I grew up in church, striving to be accepted by the Lord and believing that if I could get it ‘right’, He would love me more. What a travesty! It took many years for me to come to the realization and understanding that God loves me just as I am. No matter what I do or don’t do, He loves me. He loves me with an incomprehensible love on my best days AND on my worst because He sees me as I truly am, at the heart level. There is no hiding from God. He already sees and knows the worst of me yet He loves me with an everlasting love. I am His forever treasure!”
“I was a chubby kid growing up and that bloomed into obesity as I got older and was followed by eating disorders. I always struggled with what I looked like and my worth. The weight just exacerbated that. The enemy had found a way to slowly destroy me.
Over the years, I would strive and strive for a perfection that was unachievable, always thinking that if I could just reach that place, God would truly love me. I had believed the lie satan whispered to me. The lie that said I was worthless, of no value, shameful and an extremely poor reflection of Christ.
The constant striving only served to construct a rigid barrier of acceptable and unacceptable. The problem with that is those things were based on a system created by the enemy and my poor attempts to be ‘right’ in the eyes of Christ. Salvation is a gift. It is not earned. We do not deserve it. Christ came to bridge the gap between us and His Father. In John 14:6 Jesus says “…I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one can come to the Father except through me.” The only thing left up to me was choosing where or not to trust Him with my life.”
“Thankfully, God truly wants what is best for us. He kept pursuing me with His love. He didn’t leave me in my controlling, rigid barrier of a life, wondering was this really it. No, that life wasn’t really ‘it’. I’ve come to see and know HOW much my Papa loves me. How high, how wide, how deep is His love for me. I truly know a freedom that is beyond my comprehension. Peace that passes all understanding. He loves me. HE LOVES ME!
Zephaniah 3:17 says “For the Lord your God is living among you. He is a mighty savior. He will take delight in you with gladness. With his love, he will calm all your fears. He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.” My Papa sings over me! He delights in me. What more could I ask for?
When Aurelia asked me to do a photo shoot for The Grace Mask, in my heart I refused. See, deep within there were still some doubts about me, whether or not I measured up. Some of the enemy’s lie still had a hold over me. In His faithfulness, God wooed me and strengthened me to step into His light, His freedom. My request of Him was this: In those photos, let me see Your truth about me, not the lies of satan that I have believed all my life. I was so very afraid to do the shoot and even more afraid to look at the pictures. What if the images I saw just confirmed what I had believed all my life? That I was fat, ugly, and worthless, that I ‘wore’ my shame for all to see. That was not the case. In God’s grace and mercy, He shattered that negative image once and for all.”
“If after reading this, you realize there are things holding you back from living in the true freedom of God’s grace and love, there is a better way. In Matthew 11:28-30 (MSG), Jesus says “Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your life. I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me – watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly.”
I am his hands and feet. And I am willing to serve you and love you. You can reach me at this email address if you would like to talk – firstname.lastname@example.org.”
Radiant. Pure. Righteous. Blameless. Bride of Christ.