Tasha | Powerful Grace

My name is Tasha.
The Lord called me to himself when I was about 8 years old.  I was baptized at 12. I loved youth group , church camp and church activities.  I actively pursued discipleship during my preteen years.  But when I was 14 I started to look away from my Savior.  I gave away my virginity and started using drugs as a young teen. I was in many precarious situations where I could have been raped or killed.  Even though I had turned my eyes away from God, He continued to protect my life.
At 19 I became pregnant and I felt the Lord calling me back to Himself. He gave me a hunger for His Word and I studied it often though I was not connected to a church family at the time.  God gave me the wisdom and discernment to know that my relationship with my son’s dad was very volatile and dangerous.  I left him right before my son’s first birthday.  This was a horribly anxious time for me.  The enemy made me feel alone, unworthy, unable, inadequate, and hopeless.
I began working as much as I could.  I had two jobs and I was getting government assistance to just get by.  Two years into this struggle I realized I needed a church family.  I attended once in a while.  But even through my random church attendance I felt God pulling my heart back to Him, He is so good!
I went on a date one night with a guy my friend had been trying to set me up with. He was very nice, very much a gentleman. He gave me a dozen red roses on our first date… I am a very emotional flower receiver, so it was kind-of awkward for me to hold back tears on our first outing. On the outside, he was everything I thought I needed.  But God had a plan.  His protection is constant over those he has called to Himself.  He was sending someone else my way.
The very next day I went to one of my jobs as a server. Towards the end of the day the hostess sat a young handsome man in my section. I was delighted by the wonderful conversation we were having! His name was Peter and we discovered that we had attended the same high school. We knew a lot of the same people but WE had never met.  He asked me if I was a Christian and I said yes. We talked and talked.  Forty-five minutes passed.  Someone else actually brought out his food because I was still talking to him!  I felt like I might get in trouble if I didn’t do some cleaning or roll silverware, so I gave him some space. But we exchanged phone numbers and at that moment I chose Peter’s friendship over the other guy’s flattery.  Later I discovered that the “gentleman” who had given me roses on our first date was an atheist.  I chose God.  Praise the Lord for his boundless grace!
Peter and I attended a church service together on our first date. We stayed up talking several times into the wee hours of the morning . He knew so much about the Bible and I was eager to learn from him.  He treated me as a friend with great respect and kindness.  He didn’t attempt to even hold my hand for a month!  One night he told me that he had a strong desire to take care of me and my son. I didn’t understand at first, I had been taking care of myself and my son for so long.   What I didn’t realize at the moment was that God was calling Peter to love me and my son and in time, to be the husband that I had never known and the father Logan had not yet known.
I just love how God works everything out for the good of those who love him and are called according to purpose.
Just ten months into our relationship, I became the wife of this amazing man of God who loved me first as a friend and still loves me today as his wife.   Neither one of us is perfect.  Marriage is hard, exhausting at times but SO worth it!  The enemy hates our marriage.  Peter’s desire to rescue me and my son in love is symbolic of Christ’s love for His Church.  We are well aware of the story we are telling through our marriage and so is the enemy.  Some days it feels like there is a big target on us.  But our eyes are fixed on Jesus and we know if we stay focused on our Savior, we can walk hand in hand under His protection and “no weapon formed against us will prosper!”  (Isaiah 54:17)
God has blessed our family so richly.  He has given us a home together and we know He will grow our family in His love.  We are very excited about how God is working in our relationship and in our lives individually. God’s love never fails!  I’m so thankful that God’s grace is powerful enough to take the small faith of an 8-year-old girl and cover her in all of her wandering and rebellion.  I gave him my heart and he never let it go even though I tried to walk away.  He kept calling me back.  I’m so glad I said “yes”, again.
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-7
“You are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.” 1 Peter 2:9-10
“For I know the plans I have for you,“ declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
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